I must have written you a hundred letters in my mind. Sometimes I just lay here and think of all the things I want to say – but for one reason or another – I always find it difficult to block out all of the nonsense when I’m feeling in the mood to write.
I’ve been trying to figure out what’s happen to me. There was a time when my tolerance level was as good as it could be and I could block things out and write for hours. Not so much now. I’ve been trying to stay focus and fight my way through it. That’s kinda what I’m going to try a little harder to do while going forward. I’ve been trying to prepare myself for the past week – just trying to focus on blocking stuff out. It’s really difficult.
After all that has happened to get us (case wise) to where we are – my spirits should be through the roof. Especially when I know what loyal and loving people that I have in my life and in my corner. For someone in my situation it doesn’t get any better than that. But yet I have this void that often makes me feel as if it’s me against the world. My spirits aren’t happy at all.
I’m just wore down and tired of fighting about stuff that I shouldn’t have to fight about. It seems like going through everything that I had to go through in 2013 in dealing with the courts and a few of these guys, my tolerance level is at zero.
Tell everyone I said hello.